Hard To Concentrate

My thoughts are circular by nature. They start with blunt simplicity but eventually become intricately complex and detailed, only to return to their original simplicity. I am powerless to divert my attention and incapable of new direction. I find it hard to concentrate in every aspect of my day.

One thought dominates my consciousness, pleasant but urgent. Not a breath is drawn that doesn’t draw in her air. Not a word spoken that doesn’t echo my intentions. I have one thought and one thought alone. It matters not if I am awake or asleep, for it consumes my dreams as well as my waking life. It is unavoidable and inescapable, but I am not burdened by this thought, spiraling on and on in my head.

Mine is a problem solving and analytical brain, when presented with a challenge it allows not a moments rest until a solution is presented. It is my mind which pushes me forward with a nagging persistence, never allowing me peace.

But peace is not what I seek. I seek something different, something of much more dire consequence. So for now I lie in wait, finding it hard to concentrate on the motions of the day. Spreadsheets and phone calls may momentarily divert my attention but it is never out of mind. She is never out of my mind.

Mine is a problem solving and analytical brain. It will not rest until it has its way.

Hustle bustle
And so much muscle
Our cells about to separate
Now I find it hard to concentrate
And temporary, this cash and carry
I’m stepping up to indicate
The time has come to deviate and

All I want is for you to be happy
And take this moment to make you my family
And finally you have found something perfect
And finally you have found…

Death defying, this mess I’m buying
It’s raining down with love and hate
Now I find it hard to motivate
And estuary is blessed but scary
Our hearts about to palpitate
And I’m not about to hesitate

And want to treasure the rest of your days here
And give you pleasure in so many ways, dear
And finally you have found something perfect
And finally you have found…
Here we go.

Do you want me to show up for duty?
And serve this woman and honor her beauty?
And finally you have found something perfect
And finally you have found... yourself
With me...
Will you... agree... to take this man... into your world..
And now... we are as one...

My lone ranger,
The heat exchanger
Is living in this figure 8
Now I’ll do my best to recreate.
And Sweet precision.
And soft collision
Our hearts about to palpitate
Now I find it hard to separate.

And all I want is for you to be happy
And take this woman and make you my family
And finally you have found someone perfect
And finally you have found

All I want is for you to be happy
And take this woman and make you my family
And finally you have found someone perfect
And finally you have found…
Yourself.

"Hard To Concentrate" The Red Hot Chili Peppers